Topic: How am I?
Last night I got into a bit of an emotional state which lead me to the question; How am I really doing lately?
For a while I was just keeping myself busy, showing my family how far I’d come, how much better I was.. Going through the motions as it were. Don’t get me wrong, I’m fine, no need to worry, I’m just worried that things are going to suck again. It doesn’t help that someone’s recently been grinding on my last nerve, It’s hard being around someone who says awful things to you, really upsetting things, because it just adds to the nonsense already going on in your head. It’s just unnecessary, if you haven’t got anything nice to say then just don’t say it. You don’t how it’s going to affect them, I don’t understand why certain people feel the need to deliberately upset, anger and belittle others.
Sorry I had to get that out of my system, you see I’ve been pretty good, no emotional outbursts until certain people have decided to deliberately antagonise me, attacking my mental health and bringing up bad memories, for no obvious reason. Honestly I’m sick to death of it, I’m sure anyone who has to deal with this kind of toxic person in their life feels the same way. Here’s some advice from me to you, don’t let that arsewipe get you down, I have for too long, it’s time to stand up for ourselves.
Other than the occasional toxic d*ck getting me down I am doing alright. I’ve been thinking positively about the future, allowing myself to actually think about what I want to do with my life. I’ve got so much more time to myself now that I can do all the things I like, such as; Reading, writing, drawing and of course, blogging. I’m never bored so I haven’t had much time to think about recent events like my breakup and moving back home. I ‘ve barely registered them emotionally because if I do then it could open some much deeper flood gates, I don’t really fancy that and it would ruin this positive vibe I’ve got going on at the moment so we can deal with it at a later date. See I never used to be able to do that, I’d always spiral and get over emotional, now I’m going the opposite way, it’s new and weird, but it works. I’m waiting for an appointment to get back into CBT again, it really helped me before but I never completed my sessions when I moved, so until I’m seeing someone again I think it’s best that I don’t attempt to open the flood gate of emotional baggage and nonsense that is my mind.
So yeah, I’m not 100% but I’m working on it, slowly but surely.
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I recently did a post on Borderline Personality Disorder, the next in that series will be out later this week/early next week. You can find the first post here —->https://brynsecho.wordpress.com/2017/01/03/echoes-sanctuary-borderline-personality-disorder/
Here you can find a post on Anxiety relief and Relaxation ——>https://brynsecho.wordpress.com/2016/12/12/anxiety-relief-and-relaxation/
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